In this heart-centered episode, I dive into a deeply personal reflection sparked by a recent conversation with my liver doctor—a conversation that turned into a powerful reminder of how far I’ve come, both physically and emotionally. From revis...

In this episode, we’re diving into the recent total lunar eclipse—also known as the Blood Moon—that happened on March 13. Now, I’m not an astrology expert, but I’ve got some insights, personal experiences, and a little Google research to share ...

In this deeply personal episode of The Music of Life, I'm opening up about some profound experiences that have strengthened my faith and connection with God. From unexpected medical turnarounds to moments where divine guidance was unde...

Healing from deep emotional wounds is never easy, especially when you're trapped in a storm of pain, betrayal, and isolation. In this episode, I open up about my spiritual healing journey—one that unfolded while I was still in the midst of dail...

In this episode of The Music of Life, I’m flipping the script! Instead of hosting, I had the incredible opportunity to be a guest on Side Quest Success Stories with host Stephen Duetzmann. I share why I started this podcast, m...

Divorce is never just about legal proceedings—it’s an emotional battlefield. In this episode, I sit down with Dr. Robert Goldman, a seasoned attorney-turned-psychologist specializing in forensic evaluations, child custody cases, and court-order...

Life has a way of bringing people into our world at exactly the right time. In this episode, I open up about a powerful connection that played a huge role in my healing journey during and after my divorce. I share how meeting someone who truly ...

Hey everyone, welcome back to The Music of Life! I'm Caryn Portnoy, and today’s episode is a deeply personal one. I’ve talked a lot about my divorce in past episodes, but now, I feel like I’ve turned a corner. It’s time to focus on hea...

Co-parenting with a narcissist is not just difficult—it’s a relentless, exhausting battle that impacts every part of your life, especially your children. In this episode, I relive the realities of narcissistic co-parenting, from parent alienati...

In this episode, I open up about my own experience with legal abuse during my divorce. This is a story about resilience, empowerment, and discovering the strength to rise above unimaginable challenges. I share what legal abuse looks like, how i...

Hi everyone, it’s Caryn, and welcome back to The Music of Life! This week, I’m diving into a deeply personal and eye-opening episode about the subtle—and not-so-subtle—ways financial control and manipulation can manifest during a divor...

This week, we’re diving into one of the most challenging experiences a parent can face: navigating divorce from a narcissistic partner. Sharing insights from leading experts like Dr. David E. Clark, along with my own journey, we explore the dev...

In this deeply personal and heartfelt episode of The Music of Life, I open up about the emotional and psychological abuse I endured during my marriage and how it shaped my life. Reflecting on childhood dynamics with emotionally unavail...

In this raw and revealing episode, I get into the challenges of navigating co-parenting and overcoming manipulation during and after divorce. From struggles with custody agreements to dealing with intentional disruptions, I share my experiences...

In this episode, I share the raw and emotional journey of navigating a complex custody battle and the process of moving out of the home I shared with my ex-husband and daughter. I dive into the challenges of maintaining my relationship with my ...

In this episode, I’m opening up about a new layer of my divorce journey—the impact of friends and family. Divorce has a way of revealing people’s true colors, and in my case, it was a harsh realization. I talk about navigating friendships that ...

Today I'm getting honest about the emotional rollercoaster of dealing with controlling behaviors, losing friends, and ultimately finding the strength to rebuild. From navigating toxic relationships and smear campaigns to wrestling with my own r...

In this episode of The Music of Life, I’m diving into some deeply personal aspects of my marriage, particularly the strain that arose from a lack of physical and emotional intimacy. I share how I came to terms with the reality of a relationship...

In this episode of The Music of Life, I open up about the layers of manipulation and control I faced during the darkest times of my divorce. From discovering hidden surveillance in my own home to setting much-needed boundaries to protect my san...

In this episode of The Music of Life, I share the raw and real challenges that come with navigating a high-conflict divorce. From facing relentless verbal attacks to feeling sidelined during my daughter's Bat Mitzvah planning, I open up about t...

In this episode of The Music of Life, I discuss the emotional, financial, and logistical struggles that come with divorce—especially when it impacts our children. From managing mortgage payments to navigating tricky holiday schedules, I get rea...

Welcome to the very first episode of The Music of Life! I’m Caryn Portnoy, and today, I’m opening up about a journey that deeply transformed me—my divorce. While I originally planned to talk about music’s influence on relationships, I felt a st...

Welcome to The Music of Life! I am your host, Caryn Portnoy. I'll guide you through a deeply personal journey of divorce, healing, self-discovery, and the universal power of music. In this podcast, I open up about the challenging ex...